Wednesday, March 19, 2008
2day i pon sch as im really really very down. I hope tat there's a hole under me n engulf me...so tat i wun feel all these agony n pain.Ystd, my team n I went to paya lebar sec to have table tennis competiiton...be4 tat, we r suppose to warm up at sch. The dismissal time for us is 12.10 then 1.15 we had to go. During this period, we r suppose to eat n warm up. However, I chose to go for econs which was till 12.45...After tat, im so hungry tat i really had no strength to move, let alone play tt. Hence, i went down to the canteen n eat my lunch. The time is up after i ate my lunch n I had no time to warm up! I already had a bad feeling then... After we reach our destination and watched the C gals played( lost btw), it was our turn to vs zhong zhen high...we have 3 singles n 2 doubles. im the 1st doubles... we lost our 1st singles 3-1...Pressure was building up..I cant lose tis match as our opponent 2nd single will be a very pro china gal. If i lost tis match, then it will be 2-0 n if my team lose another match, it will be 3-0 n tats it...our hope for going top 8 will be shattered...Hence, im under very big pressure n i neva warm up just now...I was damn nervous. Our opponent won the 1st match 1-0 then i won another, 1-1 then we lost another, 2-1...n we LOST another, 3-1....the last match we lost was like all becuz of me... i kept hitting out n out n out... most of the points were lost by me...me! I was very ,...dunnoe how to say...sad? guilty? or both... the coach also say tat we lost tis match was becuz of me...our opponent won the 2nd single of cuz.. so the score is 3-0..we were trashed!!!omg... but if we neva lost tis match, the points will be 2-1 n we still have hope winning! but now, all hopes n dreams were gone... i can stand losing if its other ppl fault but i cant stand losing when its my fault...If i had neva out so many balls, we will not lose to them!! I cried for the whole match after i played wif them... Coach was super anger...(>.<)I really dunnoe wad to do next...
Feel the beat, dance to it.
{7:34 PM}